I was asked once what I regret. It was a new question for me. Not a new thought as I try hard not to live in the past wishing I’d done things differently. Made different choices.
Don’t get me wrong there are so many stupid things I’ve done. Bad choices in hindsight. My life could have had so many different turns. But then couldn’t all of ours. There are millions of different lives we all could have based on decisions and sequences of events.
There are so many alternate lives that could have been. The idea must be a popular one for there are television shows and movies about it. The Butterfly Effect with young Ashton Kutcher or Stargate SG1 season 3 episode 6.
I choose to love today. To be happy for all that is good in my current life. Not to think of what could make it better. What I should or shouldn’t have done. Today. This moment, this breath, this life is a gift.
I choose not to squander it on I wish or I should haves.
The older I get the harder that is. So many memories. The choices add up. I remind myself where I have come from. I do something as simple and pleasurable as a walk or kayak or housework. Okay, or a nice shot of fireball and a walk if it’s a really hard moment to smile. The thing is I do. In the current moment. I look for the good in my life and take a step forward.
I will not give in to regrets or sadness for in my life:
I made the best choice for me at that time in my life. I did the best I could knowing what I did at that time.